Well, this past week, I began Radio-Therapy. I will have 5 sessions. It’s an interesting experience. Painless and all that, which is great as far as therapy goes. Afterward, I feel kind of other worldly…very light in the head, not dizzy but very light and I just want to sleep so I am doing that. I figure I have just been bombarded with radioactivity and that is kind of blasting me into a new dimension…very Buck Rogers-like if you know the old space science fiction character.

It seems they use a combination of x-rays, gamma rays and charged particles using a machine called external-beam radiation. It all sounds very science fiction to me and we are beaming my little growth unto infinity and beyond…a bit of up, up and away and total oblivion. Bye-bye little growth.

As I lay there in the machine, meditating on Gamma Rays I keep flashing on Dr. Bruce Banner / The Hulk. I think I read a few too many Marvel Comics when I was 12 and 13. At any rate, the good news is that I have not turned green nor am I exploding out of my shirts!

All you need is love….and a big gamma ray gun! (My therapy team is awesome by the way…here they are, smiling and all)

So now that I have been fully gamma ray-ed, I am ready for change. Another recurring thought I have had in my therapies is the meditation, Beaming and Creating the Future. Believe me, I have been well radioactively beamed and I am ready for the future. As I lay there getting my dose of gamma rays, I feel deeply within me, rays of light, of love and healing. I am ready to beam and I am ready for the future. Here is the meditation. It is awesome.

Beaming and Creating the Future

Kriya for Beaming and Creating the Future
The Teachings of Yogi Bhajan ©2008

Become still and project the mind to create your future and your relationship to the world.

Posture: Sit in Easy Pose. Stretch the spine straight and become very still.

Eyes: Eyes are closed.

Mudra: Relax the hands in Gyan Mudra across the
knees. Touch the tip of your index finger to your thumb tip and the other 3 fingers are straight.

Part A
Drink the breath in a single, deep, long sip through the mouth. Close the mouth and exhale through the nose, slowly and completely. 7-15 minutes.

Part B
Inhale and hold the breath comfortably. As you hold the breath in, meditate on zero. Think in this way: “All is zero; I am zero; each thought is zero; my pain is zero;
that problem is zero; that illness is zero.” Meditate on all negative, emotional, mental and physical conditions and situations. As each thing crosses the mind, bring it to
zero—a single point of light, a small, insignificant non-fact. Positive things—notice and accept them without zeroing. Exhale and repeat; breathing in a comfortable rhythm. 7-11 minutes.

Part C
Think of the thought you need the most. What quality or condition do you most desire for your complete happiness and growth? Summarize that thing in a single word like “Wealth,” “Health,” “Relationship,” “Guidance,” “Knowledge,” “Luck,” etc. It has to be one word. Lock on that word and thought. Visualize facets of it. Inhale
and hold the breath as you beam the thought in a continuous stream. Lock onto it. Relax the breath as needed. 5-15 minutes.

To End: Inhale and move the shoulders, arms and spine. Then stretch the arms up, spread the fingers and breathe deeply a few times.

Comments: Your mind does not have a limit on its creativity when it is beamed with a focus after clearing it of other distracting thoughts and attachments. If practicing for 40 days, or more than a day, it is recommended that you eat light, healthy food, and practice the meditation on an empty stomach. If practicing for one day, it is best to practice this is on an empty stomach with only liquids taken during the day.

The Teachings of Yogi Bhajan ©2008
Kundalini Research Institute (KRI)

In all of this experience, I have realized the old me is no longer. It is not a matter of getting through this and then returning to what was. That ship has sailed and I know that I am in a state of evolution. I know that if I just return to how things were, I will get another message that it is time for change. And I know, the message will get even more profound if getting cancer and facing death was not enough. The scary part is answering the question, what’s next? At this point I just don’t know and that is new ground for me. For sure, I’m still who I am, I still teach and love the same things I always have but how I do things and how I manifest, I know that has changed.

Writing this Blog is a good symbol of that for me. I think I have always written somewhat well but have never really enjoyed it. It was more of a task to complete rather than be in the moment with it. Now, I love the writing. It is such an open and loving experience for me. I can’t say exactly where I am headed with it but I have to say, I know it is somewhere great.

Remembering David Bowie’s song Changes:
Turn and face the strange
There’s gonna have to be a different man”

In these past few months, I have certainly faced the strange and I am coming out as a different man. I’m just sorting out what that is exactly. The process can be a bit daunting but it is also exciting and exhilarating. A new birth, a new day, a new dawn. Yahoo!….gulp.

I am reading an interesting book right now called, “Coming Into Your Own” by Barbara Cecil. It is primarily written for women going through major life changes. The wisdom is really without gender so I am finding it very applicable for my life- change at the moment. As well, I have no shyness about relating to my feminine. So, I am exploring my Wheel of Change and understanding that a certain ending has come, and allowing myself the space of being in between the old and what new beginning is arriving. It requires a certain amount of trust and space to allow the new thing to come and not to force it. I know that forcing it will just create the “same old, same old” so I am willing to take the risk and let new beginnings come even though I don’t know what they are…at least not yet. As Louise Hay says, “Everything I need comes to me. Everything I need to know, reveals itself to me.” I deeply believe that, but you may have noticed that waiting and patience are not my strong suit so it is a good challenge for me. The seed is planted, fertilized and watered. I’ll let you know when I see that first sprout.

Remember that concept of re-writing our story? We can do that. We don’t have to be stuck with what was or how we perceived things to be. We have the ability to re-write our story and change our perspective completely. We can do this at any time and as often as we need. All the externals could remain the same, but when the perspective changes, the view and perception change profoundly and we become the newly evolved self. The reality is, that we are constantly rewriting our story, either proactively or reactively. Believe me, proactively is better.

I am a firm believer in evolution. Everything in nature and in life is continually evolving to a higher level. Even when it seems perhaps we are devolving, I always encounter something that reminds me that in our collective existence we evolve to a higher level of consciousness. As we focus attention on this, we can evolve even faster.

So, I am allowing for evolution even as parts of my body are not cooperating. Fear of the future can be a real limiting influence, in life and in healing. So I am happy to release as much of that as possible. Let go, Let God as they say. As the future becomes more clear, fear fades…although there are no guarantees. If we are not sure about the future, then we can experience a lot of fear and anxiety. The irony is that sometimes we may think we know exactly what may happen and everything is all planned out, but we all know there are many surprises on the way. Never planned on cancer but yet, here it is and I am slowly winning this challenge with love, joy and even moments of real fear of, “what’s going to happen to me?!” But, when I allow it, love trumps fear. Another of life’s lessons that I am recycling at this time.

Speaking of those messages that remind me of our evolution, I’ve just read a wonderful article by the Dalai Lama, “Why I am hopeful about the world’s future.”.  I figured if after all he has been through, he can still be hopeful about the world, well, I can be hopeful about me and my place in this world. The article, for me, captures the evolutionary spirit of humanity. All the violence and fear that is so prevalent at this time, are outdated modalities. Yes, there is much work to do. It may be daunting but collectively we can evolve. It may take decades but an era of peace and prosperity is possible. So, like him, I chose to be hopeful, I chose to be positive, I chose to be joyful and alive. And, I chose to let fear go and know that my future is bright.

Love, peace and blessings to you all,
Sada Sat Singh

Content retrieved from: https://yogaborgo.com/blog/ch-ch-ch-ch-changes.