Well, I just finished 5 months of Chemotherapy. An event that I am hoping is truly only a once in my lifetime experience. It’s a gnarly thing to go through. It was like having the flu for 5 months. I will now have a CAT Scan in mid-March and I am praying and projecting for super positive results. I’ll let you know on that as soon as I have the results. Keep your fingers crossed for me and keep sending those wonderful prayers that I keep receiving from you all.
So, now that that part of the journey is complete I am giving myself a chance to breathe, recuperate and recover. It’s amazing how much energy it can take just to try to stay even. I can finally let my hair down as we say…though there is not much of that left. I lost a lot of it after 2 months of the chemo but still there is some. Maybe it will grow back. I am learning not to be too attached! Thank God for turban fashion. At least my beard hair remains. I’ve had that for 47 years and may not recognize myself without it.
I have to say that I am appreciating myself greatly at the moment. And thanks to you all and your continued support I am here to tell the tale. High fives, hugs and kisses all around. There were many moments of having to “dig deep” to find that deep inner strength…Probably deeper than I have ever dug before. In Kundalini Yoga, we have a mantra, Keep Up! We say it is the Maha (Great) Mantra of the Aquarian Age. Keep Up and you’ll be kept up. When you are looking life in the eye and possibly seeing the end of it, you have to ask, is there a choice? For me, there wasn’t one so, I kept up. Especially those mornings of going to the hospital for a 6 hour chemotherapy drip and knowing that the next 5-6 days I would probably be feeling the worst I have ever felt. I kept my 2 mantras going….Keep Up! and “I choose Life”. So far they have worked and I am keeping them going.
I have found that for me, just putting one foot in front of the other becomes a magical formula. Of course, I think that it depends on where you are going. As they say, “If you don’t know where you are going, any road will take you there.” George Harrison Good to know where you are going so you can recognize your destination when you arrive.
Keeping your head in the game and maintaining a positive mental attitude is tantamount to healing.
To this point, I have been taking a pretty traditional medical path with the operation, radiotherapy, chemotherapy etc. To this I add lots of positive affirmation (non-stop), meditation and long deep breathing. As well, I am a vegetarian and eat a fairly disciplined diet…every now and then perhaps a little sweet indulgence but you have to enjoy living as well as your discipline.
And now that the chemo is finished and once I recover my digestion, I plan on doing some cleansing to clear a lot of the toxins from the chemo though I have to wait awhile before I am fully ready for that.
In the meantime, I am doing my meditations. One of them is “Healthy Am I, Happy Am I, Holy Am I”. I repeat that mantra and visualize myself in golden healing light especially in the abdomen lymph area where I had the two tumors. Hoping to see soon that they are gone.
I am also doing the meditation, “Releasing Fear of the Future”. It’s not so much that I have fear but maybe a little anxiety. I have no idea what comes next but as I have said, I continue to be positive and project for super positive results. Do you remember that we call waiting for the SCAN and its results, “Scan-xiety”? We just don’t know what’s coming but so far so good and I look forward to that continuing.
Here is the Meditation.
I do this for 11 minutes every day. When I am feeling low energy, I will do it laying down.
I thank each of you for your on-going support and prayers. I’ll let you know the results of my CAT Scan as soon as I have them!
Love, Peace and Blessings to you all,
Sada Sat Singh